Scattered beginings

Looking back we seemed to have randomly ended up here. Much like a hand dealt from a shuffled deck of cards, these affairs began arbitrarily. Each of us saying that a relationship is something that neither of us wanted. THE TRUTH is, you (the female) probably sought a relationship from the beginning. Only agreeing with his objection to it, just so not to seem so conspicuous. The thing about inconspicuity in relationships is, it will expose you later! Let's define! conspicuous according to dictionary.com means:easily seen or noticed; readily visible or observable. Now lets face it, being transparent on the first date is not exactly attractive;but what if you had laid out your wants from day one? Then, it probably seemed like a bad idea, after all, you don't want to scare him away. But if you knew then what you know now!! Had you, from jump street said "I want a relationship"(or at least set some boundaries), think of what you could have spared? This game of cat and mouse(you:cat, He:mouse) would have been nipped in the bud ages ago. A "zero tolerance" attitude would have been understood and administered to his disappearing acts, if only, you laid the ground work. So many of our beginnings are scattered. We entered these liaisons by choice and by chance. Hoping to communicate in abstract what we were hesitant to say;thus creating a trial for ourselves. But what good is a game if it isn't challenging? .... no regrets about how it began focus on the win in the end!!!!... lesson 1 coming soon!